| my little post election input |
[04 Nov 2004|06:08pm] |
Why is it important to vote?
It is important to vote in the United States if you live in the right state or if you genuinely believe in a candidate. For me, neither of those things are the case; 2000 showed me that. The idea that if you don't vote you "can't complain" is not that realistic in my opinion. If you are forced to participate in a sham process like US elections (where the choice is only between white millionaire men), you can legitimately protest the lack of real choice. Notice how John Kerry will not allow himself to be called a "liberal"! We have a political system of Far right wingers and right winger/centrists. That's like choosing between crack cocaine and powder cocaine when I just want some weed.
But you know, I'm trying to look on the bright side here. Bush won. But really, our options are shitty reguardless, and four more years of Bush will discredit all his policies and things will get worse and radicalize the left in America (hopefully… if we are lucky).
picture for me, if you will, America...without Capitalism. Sounds beautiful doesnt it?
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[30 Oct 2004|08:30pm] |
I am burning my skin off little by little
until I reach bone and self
until I get to where I am essential
until I get to where I am.
Food doesn't tempt me anymore because I am so full of energy and sense I can even pass by water now because I am living off the parts of me that I don't need anymore.
I could feel the slow drips of pain before, swirling inside where my lungs should have been.
Now I'm clean inside.
All my dresses and bras
stupid things like jeans and socks.
Most days I float through the house naked so I can see myself in the mirrors.
I have hundreds of them everywhere and they talk back to me all the time.
They keep me true and pure.
They makes sure I'm still here.
When I knew what I had to do I took all my notebooks, all my manuscripts and ate them page by page so I could take my words with me.
I can finally control my life and even death and I will die slowly like steam escaping from a pipe.
This is my greatest performance and all of the actresses who won my parts will say
how wonderful to let yourself go that mad, how wonderful to go on this kind of journey and not care if you come back to tell the story.
Starvation is sacred and I scratch my bones
against the windows at night.
I light candles and feel myself evaporate.
This body is a little church. A little temple.
You can't see me now because I've gone inside.
My family doesn't' call anymore.
My friends don't call anymore.
You can't hurt me anymore.
They can't hurt me anymore.
Only I can.
And that's okay.
I don't need them anymore.
I can live off of me.
I speak to me . I dance with me.
I eat me.
When they find me, I'll have a little smile on my face and they'll wrap me in a white cloth and lay me in the ground and say they don't' understand.
But I do.
I don't hurt anymore.
I'm not lonely anymore.
I'm not sad
I'm not pretty anymore.
I made it through.
I feel so holy and clean when I stretch out on the floor and sing..
Sometimes god comes in for a minute and says I'm doing fine, I'm almost there.
Every day I get a little closer to vanishing.
Some days I can't stand up because the room moves under my feet and I smile because I'm almost there,
I'm almost an angel.
One day
when I am thin enough
I'll go outside fluttering my hands so I can fly
and I will be so slight that I will pass through all of you silently like wind.
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[15 Oct 2004|11:37pm] |
what color are you on a rubic cube: green
automatic can opener or handheld manual: handheld
favorite childhood toy: my handheld tape recorder
if you had 7 legos what would you build: a samurai
what size and color lego are you: i'm the medium- fits just about with everything green one.
favorite type of bread: french bread from heb
favorite type of cheese: brie triple cream
favorite possession: my green raincoat.
possession with the most meaning: my notebook
anolog or digital clock: neither-i don't like time.
jack keuroac or jack daniels: kerouac definitely!
favorite town: flagstaff, AZ.
do you like your feet: i love feet so much!
favorite farm animal: ducks!
party or diner: party
tea or coffee: green tea, chai
automatic or manual car: auto
nutrasweet or sugar: splenda
dream pet: little turtle
spoon or fork: fork for everything
magazine or book: book
would you own one of those new fridges with a flat screen tv in it: i dont watch tv
favorite form of transportation: biking
favorite thinking spot: laying across my ladder in the backyard
top 3 (in order) chain fast food restaurants: taco cabana, villa pizza(in the mall), taco bell
trashiest fast food restaurant: Jack in the Box
coolest thing you ever made: sculpted a huge yellow brain out of playdoh and cooked it
proudest moment: hearing wallin get mad at me for having low self-esteem
mittens or gloves: green little girl gloves
do you wear a watch? no.
dream job: journalist (for magazine or indynewspaper)
movie or tv: movies.
electric or manual razor: manual
single, double, or triple blades: triple
favorite childhood show: barney because of the magic craft bag.
when you wake up in the morning in what websites do you check (in order): i don't get online in the AM
favorite font: eurostile, impact
trashiest house decoration: fake fruit
favorite car memory: hunter turning the wrong way down a one way street and mila followinghim screaming "im gonna kill you"
backdrop on your computer: plain stuff
mac or pc: PC
word you misspell the most: purposeless
things you do before bed: shower, brush teeth, talk to louie, then usually john
in my past life i was : hurt deeply by someone
favorite class (dont try to be witty with "lunch" or "recess"): Ap Euro History
how much postal mail do you get a week: enough to be satisfied but not so much as too not appreciate it.
feelings on scarfs: i love scarves. especially green ones
rank your favorite seasons in order: fall, winter, summer, spring
favorite country you've never visited: italy
best place you've ever had a sandwich: hollywood cafe on rosemarybread.
favorite coin: dime. their so tiny
favorite movie to quote: donnie darko ("you're not a bitch, you're bitchen but you're not a bitch.")
favorite road trip: spontaneous ones
most vivid moment of a changing realization: red hot chili peppers concert last summer
how often do you wash your sheets: when i feel they need to be washed
do you ever wear mismatched socks: yeah
black pen or blue pen: black
answer to last question or pencil: pen
grass or sand: grass
favorite diner: jonny rockets on santa monica boulevard
does it bother you if your hangers dont match: i dont give a fuck. stupid question.
what is hanging on your favorite wall: all the art that i've done, plus the antique pictures karl gave me, and all theart he made me
favorite accessory: a plain black necklace cord thing
your first screen name: jackiemarie87
what grade was that in: 7th i think?
do you own a day planner: yep
favorite gas station: shamrock b/c of it's logo
knowledge or happiness: true happiness is unobtainable, and knowledge is all that i can depend on
number of pennies in your pocket: 11
favorite dvd packaging: what??
how do you feel about car mats: i want green ones
celery or broccoli: both! they're green!
do you have a potted plant in your room/apt/house: no
favorite word: nepenthe
favorite TV moment of all time: none
do you own a dictionary: yes
favorite shirt: my flogging molly tshirt
apartment in the city or house in the country: apartment in the city
perfect sleeping conditions: rain, jonathan's cd, warm bed, navy scrubs and a sports bra.
favorite collection: my jackets
something youd love to steal and not get caught: affection from a guy
did you like this survey: unusual
why do you think everyone hates you: because i'm "jacie shannon" (notice the quotes) i guess itcomes with the title. plus probably because i wouldnt really care if they did or not.
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| battle of the bands |
[10 Oct 2004|04:13pm] |
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hey if anyone is interested in playing at westside highschool's battle of the bands on actober 30th comment so i can get you info and an application. love you all.
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[08 Oct 2004|11:57pm] |
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200 THINGS TO DO: (what i have done is in BOLD. try it for yourself)
01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramids
06. Held a tarantula.
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea (well, the ocean, but yes)
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible
moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking (Done even at times without the aid of alcohol)
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain (Wheee! Puddle Jumping!)
79. Gone to a drive-in theater.
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off.
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once? - More than thrice?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loud in the car; didn't stop when you knew someone was
looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived.
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper.
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in
your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen... a spoon and a salt shaker
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many
times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested
that was long, but i realized ive done alot of stuff in my life...and that i have a lot of stuff to do.
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| john |
[03 Oct 2004|10:36pm] |
Kill Bunny Blue: but all will pass
Kill Bunny Blue: and we will soon rule the world
Kill Bunny Blue: with large trout shaped hammers
Kill Bunny Blue: and partial foot covers that are all covered in snake skin
Kill Bunny Blue: and oversized novelty foam cowboy hats
Kill Bunny Blue: and all will bow before out feet and offer john gifts of soda, because he doesnt have any
Kill Bunny Blue: *looks for caffine*
Kill Bunny Blue: YES!! I NEED COKE!!!
Kill Bunny Blue: and then I will digest the world supply
pass the jacks: hahaha
pass the jacks: i <3 u
pass the jacks: that sounds fun
Kill Bunny Blue: and send my coke army against the forces of the dreaded low carb army
pass the jacks: i'm excited about the oversized foam hats
pass the jacks: :-D
Kill Bunny Blue: and soon EvOl Atkins man will perish at the site of so much ice cold beverages
Kill Bunny Blue: and there will icy beverages for all
Kill Bunny Blue: and then the polar bears will return to the TV adds
Kill Bunny Blue: with the traditional "Always, Always Coca-Cola"
Kill Bunny Blue: The girl who did that annoying ass "bada ba ba ba The joy of Pepsi" will be chained
pass the jacks: lol
Kill Bunny Blue: dragged to the streets and flogged by all the coke icons she destroyed
pass the jacks: haha
pass the jacks: flogged
pass the jacks: i love that word
pass the jacks: its so visual
Kill Bunny Blue: acid inducing rabbits will flood the streets and erase the memories of previous cola drinks
Kill Bunny Blue: I will then fly in my 143214 ton Jet around the world and paint it red
Kill Bunny Blue: Red for the coke
Kill Bunny Blue: Red for the blood to be shed
Kill Bunny Blue: Red for my homie Stalin
Kill Bunny Blue: Red because its not Blue
Kill Bunny Blue: Red for all the boys and girls because coke loves red
Kill Bunny Blue: and red loves you
Kill Bunny Blue: So the coca theme will begin a music warfare on all country music
Kill Bunny Blue: songs about their dogs and trucks will be replaced with Garth Brooks singing about coke
Kill Bunny Blue: And all the while My throne will be built
Kill Bunny Blue: On the former site of the United States, as during the hub-bub
Kill Bunny Blue: Canada Invades!!
pass the jacks: hehe coke and socialism
Kill Bunny Blue: O CANADA!!
Kill Bunny Blue: and the mounties will rid swifty through the streets
Kill Bunny Blue: tipping their hats to crowds and inspiring h8 to the everyone but the canadians
Kill Bunny Blue: for their major warfare is their manners
Kill Bunny Blue: and of course the beaver
pass the jacks: haha
Kill Bunny Blue: the furry loveable beaver
Kill Bunny Blue: with its tail of swift power
Kill Bunny Blue: but then when all has settled we truely reaize
Kill Bunny Blue: what the beaver does
Kill Bunny Blue: for the beaver, the symbol of the land of the free
Kill Bunny Blue: and home of the Mounties and Johns true land
Kill Bunny Blue: the beaver does what now class?
Kill Bunny Blue: when its not endorsing peanut butter
Kill Bunny Blue: and building dams
Kill Bunny Blue: it eats trouts
Kill Bunny Blue: that swim in the streams
Kill Bunny Blue: and without the trouts, because the beaver ate them all
Kill Bunny Blue: there was no coke revolution
Kill Bunny Blue: and this was a flight of fancy
Kill Bunny Blue: because we had no trout weapons
Kill Bunny Blue: the end
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[03 Oct 2004|02:44pm] |
Everytime i sit and look at my update page i cant let myself type. but anyway- here's a thing i stole from mila. at least i'll have some update.
Hi, my name's Jacquelyn, I'm 17 years-old. Something you probably didn't need to know about me is I can speak Japanese & if I had a super power it would be the ability to relieve pain and suffering in people with my touch. I couldn't live without music and green tea, but I'm not the biggest fan of responsibility. I'd like to make out with you, paint you a pretty picture & write the great American novel before I die. And I think cuddling is pretty fantastic. Also I think you should listen to Bright Eyes & read anything by Rumi.
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[12 Sep 2004|07:33pm] |
So, scream I heard about your message
and how it reads of your indifference
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[11 Sep 2004|04:45pm] |
the 4 stars
one is cold and distant
one is warm and new
one is uniquely distinctive but already named
one keeps trying to remind me it was already there and never left
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| our plans would all be ruined |
[11 Sep 2004|04:34pm] |
yeah- i havent updated in a hell of a loong time. this is due mostly to 2 major points:
1) noone really reads this- (but really it doesnt matter cuz i had it in the first place to rant for myself...which only proves point #1 b/c i can do that elsewhere- like in my journal thing that i carry everywhere)
2) Life hasn't given me two seconds of my own time to myself and it takes more than 2 seconds for each page to load on my comp.
so anyway i volunteered at the democratic office today- running around putting vote kerry signs in peoples front yards. it was hot as hell and i swear they gave us the most complicated neighborhood. ahh.
Theatre rehearsals have been crazy. really long and stuff- buti enjoy them. I still have to get offbook for act 2 by monday. i'm so sore...and i am the only one who is getting an insane workout from this show mostly cuz i'm a dog and i'm constantly getting up and down off the floor and i stand on the table and couch and stuff.
Senior girls pics are tommorow- i have no clue what to wear or anything. gah.
love life-> really confusing right now.
everything is incredibly stressful and depressing.
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[29 Aug 2004|11:03am] |
wow-> crazy that this had oberst on it.
you are an indie asshole. some of your music is
good but for the most part, its awful. you
think you are better than everyone. someone
could shit on a guitar and you would call it
art. get a life you prick.
what kind of asshole scene kid are you?
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[27 Aug 2004|03:47pm] |
a single tear is rolling down my cheek
so i kiss it and taste the subtle saltiness
celebrating once again being able to feel.
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[27 Aug 2004|03:32pm] |
...and now, i just want to take this moment
to thank you for the nothingness you made me feel inside.
i never show the truth, because it's all i've got
to hide. the others wouldn't want to see me smile
in pain. therefore, i now begin to wane away tonight.
and coming back to you, your eyes glow with despise
now that i've said this all aloud. without a doubt
you'll never speak to me again, and i guess that i'll live
for now. but when will i be re-allowed to listen to your voice?
it's not my choice to be ignored. i'm sorry if you got bored
on those nights when we would just lay down and share the view. i thought it would be a beautiful moment to share with you. if only i knew, but you, why won't you speak?
i feel so weak and on my own. i'm on my own.
you don't know when i'm alone
that i cry to my pillow
and still no one really knows
what i think and when i don't
so i've decided to go
because we've both been alone
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| i dont want to hurt |
[23 Aug 2004|10:51pm] |
i dont want to hurt
i dont want to hurt
i dont want to hurt you
i dont want to hurt you
this always happens like breathing and not wanting to...
and these pills dont work fast enough.
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[20 Aug 2004|06:12pm] |
i just got the lead in our first play of the year- i'm a sexy dog. and ive never been so excited. =D september 22 dont forget.
my birthday is sunday and i'm having a party tommorow (saturday) night so if you want info comment cuz i've forgotten to invte alot of people i otherwise would. o yeah- i love you. btw.
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the trouble with friendships is an issue of selfishness. it seems like it always comes down with who can get what out of who and then who fits into who's schedule. it seems like everyone is so damn concerned with themselves that they can even notice let along care when they hurt someone. thats so fucking bad.
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[12 Aug 2004|11:55pm] |
this weather's got me wanting love more tangible...
something i can hold...
cuz its getting cold.
hold me?
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[12 Aug 2004|12:43am] |
sFhOaOuDn: the next time i see you, we're going to spend 10 minutes embracing ok
sFhOaOuDn: to make up for the hugs you owe me in back pay
"back pay"....i need to start logging hugs given and those held back so that i can budget hugs for when situations like these arrive where someone has actually totaled an owed amount. hehe. anyway.
went to the senior girls meeting and the voted color theme was black and hot pink. *quivers* egh pink. i wanted red. anyway.
i biked 10 miles today when i got home- am quite proud. almost killed myself swerving to dodge a little frog in the road. fucking frog.
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| i havent updated in a long ass time |
[11 Aug 2004|05:51pm] |
i'm not going to write a neverending entry about every detail of every day that i didnt update- mostly because i dont want to think about it and because i know you dont care.
everytime i've thought about updating, the only way i felt i could communicate the way i was feeling was through lyrics and i figured youd get awful annoyed by my entries of only lyrics.
some good things:
-andrew bought me the bright eyes/niva dinova split on VINYL
-i got the shins album
-i hung out in a hot tub today. =)
-i got the guy at office depot to give me 114$ worth of 1500 copies for only 14$
-hung out with elsa
-karl is at least talking to me (sorta)
-senior orientation went exceptionally well (mostly b/c i was so caffeinated that i had no social anxiety
some not so good things:
-i just ran out of diet coke
-i cant bring myself to work out and all the girls seemed to have lost weight over the summer
-i'm still so fucking insecure and shy around erik
-i'm growing my hair out =(
-i'm poor and i want alot of stuff right now
things that i dont know whether they're good or bad
-theatre camp friday-> will i be social or insecure
-i saw louie...it was weird
-school is starting
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